Ups and Downs and Randomness.

My best friend moved back to Utah.

She still hasn't moved into my house. If she even is anymore.

I had a job interview the other day.

Of course, they haven't called back.

I got the most amazing letter today.

I almost made it a week without crying.

He Is We tomorrow night!

It'll make me miss Jared even more..

Vegas, Cali, and camping in a couple weeks.

I will be in the same state as Jared...

A break from Subway.

Very small paycheck.

SEATTLE IN AUGUST.

School starts the next day.

There are the good moments and the bad days.

I need to keep staying strong and positive.

Life is what you make it, right?

I have been so incredibly lonely lately.

I will get used to it though.

This is life.

 

I have made a few new totally random goals for myself.

 

Instead of dwelling on my mistakes and listening to others negative comments about what I did wrong, I am going to learn from them.

I am going to be a little bit selfish. I have always been the type of person that won't let myself be happy if the people around me aren't happy. I think it has caused me to have some problems in my own life. For now on, I am going to force myself to be happy no matter what. I need to be. Although, I am still going to be that girl who is there for anyone.

Piano. I have started playing again. It is an amazing feeling! I am going to get good again. Watch me.

It is summer. I need to live it up. I can't keep being sad because my best friend is gone. He is living his life and doing incredible things. I need to do the same. 

I am so sick of constantly asking people do to fun things with me. Like, fires, hikes, swimming, and other random things. I am just going to do them by myself.

I am going to learn to sew. Yes, me. I have always wanted to learn how to make bags, blankets, and my own clothes.

I am also going to learn how to cook. Once again, yes me! Haha. I will make some bomb food some day.