SHRINK!

I have never been the type of girl who obsessed with my weight. 

I have just thought the same things any teenage girl would think.

I have always eaten what I want. Never counted calories... blah blah blah.

I love food. Especially sweets.

I have never been a stick what so ever.

I've got curves.

I have been comfortable-ish enough at my own weight. 

I have been at a healthy weight for my height and all that good stuff.

This is me at about my average weight. I am not a stick, but I do have curves. (Don't compare me to her because she is tiny.)

I have a thyroid problem which makes it incredibly hard to lose weight and super easy to gain weight. I have considered myself lucky because most people with thyroid issues are incredibly obese.

AWESOME.

I stopped taking Aderal. I am always hungry now.
 

All my weight goes straight to my boobs and stomach.

Also, working at Subway doesn't help. Free soda and left over cookies. I don't even like them that much. What the heck!

The worst part is my goal was to look good by the time I saw my boyfriend again. Instead i gained thirty pounds. He lost thirty pounds and looks incredible. He has a 6 pack. I feel pretty gross. Ha.

April:

I lost ten pounds. I don't know how. I just did. YAY! Than the boyfriend left. Depression kicked in. My thoughts were already, "I am going to get in shape so when he gets home I will look hot!"

May, June, and July:

Depression, depression, depression. I gained twenty pounds and stayed like that for a while.

The holidays to now:

Ten more pounds. This is getting ridiculous. I don't fit into any of my clothes. I get jealous of girls who I think have perfect bodies. They probably think I am checking them out. Hahaha.

It makes you think when a five year old asks if you are having a baby.

Thirty pounds heavier. Not cool.

This is going to a not a diet, a life style change.

I am going to take baby steps.

I am not going to completely deprive myself. 

Where is living in that?

Changes:

• Water, water, water. I need to drink more. It will make it seem like I am fuller.
• I am taking Aderal again. It makes me not have as much as an appetite.
• Gym three times a week.
• Little exercises before bed and in the morning.
• Cut out carbs. Not all of them. Just limit myself on how much I eat of them.
• More fruits and veggies! 
• No more candy runs. 
• Just one serving of chicken or eggs a day.
• Smaller portions.
• No eating ANYTHING after 9 pm.
• Putting motivational pictures up in my room.
• Everyday, write down what I eat, my weight, and exercises I did.
• When I get down, instead of eating for comfort, work out!.
• Ice cream once a week. Like I said, I am not depriving myself!
  
• No more cookies and soda at work. If I am absolutely dying... diet coke or lemonade.

Goals:

Wear my bikini in the summer.

Lose thirty pounds. I am not going to say a date because that will only frustrate me.

Feel good about my appearance.

Wear my old clothes.

Here is some motivation!

If anyone has any tips, PLEASE LET ME KNOW!

I am not blogging about this for attention. I am because I think it will help me. I will update about my progress about every two weeks.