Maybe it is the weather. Saved draft 1/11/2011

I don't know if it is the weather or what but I have been feeling off.
Something just is not right.
I am in a constant daze and it is getting harder and harder for force a smile across my face.
My days consist of waking up at noon, going to the gym, and taking too long to get ready just to go to Subway.
Yeah, I still work at Subway.
I will be there the rest of my life.


I feel like I am home by myself more than a almost twenty year old girl should be.
NOT HEALTHY.

I need to be surrounded by more people.
I don't necessarily mean friends and such...
I mean just people. 
Strangers.
The company of others!


I have been okay-ish because I have been going to school and there are people all around.
But, I am taking a long break from school.
As much as I dislike my job (somedays)I love being there just because I am around people.
SAD?
Pretty much.

I am envious of missionaries.
Why? Because they have a companion with them 24/7.
I would love that....

I want to move out. 
With a huge group of girls.
SO BAD.
I had plans to with three other girls.
They all bailed.
Big surprise....

I talk to my cat.
I am one of those ladies.

I have come to realize facebook makes me depressed.
I got on the other day and the first four things that popped up were girls my age who were engaged.
JEALOUS.
I admit it.
Plus everyone saying, "Best night ever! Blah blah blah." 
YOU SUCK.


For now, I am blaming it all on the weather.