Scribbles.

These last few days the only thing that has kept me somewhat sane is writing.

I write a few letters every day.
I write them to Jared and to myself.
I write in my journal.
And I blog.
When I have something come to my mind, I write on those handy dandy sticky notes.

I want to write a book.
And I am starting to write music again.

I don't know the right words to describe life right now.
Honestly, I haven't been able to describe life for the last eight months.
SO many things have happened in my life.
I am not trying to say that I have the worst life ever because it could be tons worse.
Just graduating and trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life, which everyone goes through.
Dealing with my own depression and anxiety. (Don't judge me.)

My boyfriends family, which literally became my family, moving to Missouri.
My brother having a horrible accident and almost dying. Spending six weeks at the hospital hoping he will come out of a coma. I witnessed a true miracle.
My baby Oreo dying.
The only thing that has kept me going are my two best friends...
And well my best friend, Elizabeth, moved to Arizona.
And to top it off, my better half, going on a mission.
Many other bad things have happened during that time as well that I would rather not get into.
In the last couple days several people have said I am here for you or something close to that.
Funny thing is the only people that are there for me are people that I hardly even know.
Thanks.

Right now I just want to keep myself as busy as possible.
It isn't really happening yet.
I am still just sitting around being a mess.
If anyone wants to hang out, let me know.
Or if anyone is having a hard time in life, I would love to help!
Helping people when they are going through a hard time is what I love to do best.

it makes me happy.
(Too bad I can't really help myself.)

I want to be your friend!